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     "Victim 6 recalls being taken into the locker room next to Holuba Hall at Penn State by Jerry Sandusky when he was 11 years old, in 1998.  Sandusky picked him up at his home, telling him he was going to be working out.  As they were driving to the University, Sandusky put his right hand upon Victim 6's left thigh several times.

     “After lifting weights and playing invented games, Sandusky began wrestling with Victim 6, who was much smaller than Sandusky.  Then Sandusky said they needed to shower, even though Victim 6 was not sweaty.

     “This left the victim feeling awkward and he tried to go shower at a distance, away from Sandusky, who allegedly called him over, saying he had already warmed up a shower for the boy.

     “Once in the shower, Sandusky allegedly approached the boy, grabbed him around the waist and said, ‘I'm going to squeeze your guts out.'

Sandusky then continued to lather the boy's back.”

           From:   Thirty-Third Statewide Investigating Grand Jury

     Jerry Sandusky’s heinous crime will have devastating far-reaching implications for many people for many years to come.  However, what strikes me hardest is not the crime itself, rather it is the impetus behind the act.  What kind of people commit this kind of crime...and why?  What could they possibly be thinking?  What do they look like?  How might someone visualize this horror --this impetus-- to others who may want to ask these same question, but don’t or can’t? 

     Indeed, why do we so seldom speak of the motivation and mind-frame of the perpetrator, or of prior behaviors that may  lead to crimes like these?  Is it because the words necessary to conjure the crime must never be publicly uttered?  And does this also hold true for images?  On the other hand, can words and images even effectively capture the ghastly passion behind power-crimes like these?

     And so, I decided to make a simple, experimental, fictional video in an attempt to see if I could invoke “the dangerous”... “the demons”... “the taboo” inside the missing, unspeakable, primordial back-story.  I constructed this video myself, but who is holding the camera?